well now i need some change. i do not feel like im necessarily advancing my life anymore in Newport (or in RI), and I have slipped into a mild depression. the depression is only sporadic, but when it hits, i feel a sense of panic. So the question is what can i do to re-focus my life, establish goals, and put some direction into my life. at the moment im considering a move to Providence, which would only be temporary. I know that I will need a change out of RI, but I have found a girlfriend that i want to hold on to and hope that I can establish a long term relationship with. So what do i do... wait to see what direction she wants to go? break up with her and make a change w/o her? move to NY and see how life goes there? The answer is unclear, but i feel like moving back to CA will indeed make me happier, but not necessarily satisfy my mild depression... maybe it would only be a temporary fix until i get my life going in the proper direction. so before i make the decision to move back, i feel like i need to do the best i can out here to put my life back onto a happy, productive, satisfying path. ive already signed up to volunteer at a hospital to gain experience in the medial world. unfortunately that does not start until Nov. I feel the need to change my living situation, as i feel depressed as soon as I get home (only on days when I have no plans) and shut the door.

go with the flow.